This is kind of a rant. For the longest of times, I've had difficulty finding people who would be comfortable with me hugging them longer than whats normal according to society. Long hugs with people I consider friends often makes them uncomfortable, and they end up avoiding me. To a guy who's always been needy for a long hug thats longer than usual, it hurts to be avoided by friends or buddies. I've always been in search for people who would be comfortable with having me hold them longer than usual. Thats a big reason why I joined this site over a year ago. Unfortunately, it feels like most people out there such as friends and family are just uncomfortable with the idea of holding someone they consider a friend longer than usual (unless its a romantic partner). Any person shouldn't have to resort to a website and higher a stranger off the internet for something like this. I feel frustrated because I should at least have 1 or 2 friends i can go to for a hug. Instead im paying a stranger $80 for that instead, because heck its easier and plus the cuddlist is used to that type of thing. Honestly, nobody should have to pay anyone for a hug. But I realized that some people are just forced into situations like this and aren't given many options. My cuddlist told me, people don't like to hug others long not because they aren't comfortable with you, but because they feel uncomfortable with themselves.