Well it's a month into my travels and I'm feeling homesick. I miss my community. I miss my friends. I've always been pretty good at handling loneliness and it's not like I'm struggling to have interactions with people but there's been a huge spike in flaky people and ghosting from clients and it's emotionally painful.
That's what's making me lonely. Back home I had friends I could see when things were going sour working as a professional cuddle buddy. I had people I could cry to. Those were my acts of self love. Meeting my emotional needs. Recharging.
Now I'm not even getting replies from female enthusiasts near me. That adds to the feeling of rejection from this site. Like, it's not just men feeling this way. I get it. Me too.
I need positive female vibes. It's how I recharge and I'm feeling drained.