How do you deal with the world and it’s people. Both the good that’s left in it and the evil that follows . I feel powerless. The ideal world in my opinion is way more loving , accepting and safe. But the reality is the latter . There’s good but there’s too much evil . There are good people but there are too many with evil intent . How do you deal with reality ? How do you exist ? It’s hard for me to be unkind to people. It’s hard for me to walk with my personal darkness and treat others with the energy that darkness Carrie’s . I have been an unkind flawd individual in various times of my life . I’m not an untainted soul . I am a walking contradiction . My ideal world is shrouded in kindness , warmth and love . But reality always finds it’s way to keep me grounded , paranoid, scared, hardened , cold , distant and insecure. How do you flow in the light when darkness follows close behind ? My personal mental and spiritual conflict . Wanted to see what kind of feedback I’d get and what varied perspectives I’d get to read through . Feel free to ignore if this is too weird .