An amazing song sung by Chris Cornell, made famous by Sinead O'Connor, and written by Prince. All stolen away because of mental illness and drugs. Please get help . Im not being preachy but if you struggle with drugs or mental illness please get help. Cuddling is fun but it's temporary. Its not real help. It's not therapy. It's not long term intervention. And If your brain isn't right it will sometimes leave you worse than when you started. That is all
@pmvines Why hasn’t that song been charged with a felony?
I had no idea Chris Cornell and Prince were both tied to this song too. Wow 3 icons… all gone. Love Sinead, Prince, Cornell ❤️❤️❤️ RIP
@pmvines I love the way he sounds in this
I recently have come to terms with being an addict. I won't day with what. But im going to meetings and trying my best to move forward and be better. One step at a time!!!
@PrettyLuv I also highly recommend his covers of One and Billie Jean
@Jova114 admitting to yourself you have a problem is half the battle , now you have the problem identified. When your demon has a name it's much easier to cast out . I've been sober way longer than I was an addict but I still have to make a conscious decision to not go back. Good luck and I'm happy that you are seeking help and doing the meetings.
@pmvines thank you. I appreciate the supportive words a lot.
Ptsd, anxiety, bipolar depression is some of the many things I go through in my every day life . For the past two weeks my mind hasn’t been right , I’m off balance and all I do is cry for no reason even when I’m out and about . I hate feeling this way but this depression has placed a heavy hold on my that doesn’t seem to go away , i been hiding this for too long now and the more I hide the worst it gets .. I don’t want pity from anyone but if I don’t speak up I’m afraid I might do something terrible to myself . Take this burden out of me comfort me .
Mindlessly scrolling the forums tonight feeling (Bleh) and (Blegh) hoping to find a spot to vent. I think I found it. Thank you. Fair warning: Typing is about to happen down below, I'm not sure what's about to come out. Proceed at own risk ⚠️
It's one of those nights. Existence feels ... Empty. Responsibilities have been taken care of, I've talked with friends, I bought some things that I've been wanting for my hobbies. Yet I'm still just, ?? Deflated? Void? I can't find a good word for it. I think it might help to just bawl my eyes out for a bit, but I can't. I know my family loves me, my friends do too, even if they don't explicitly say it. My roomie is probably still happily playing video games cus I can see the light under the door. Really I should just be asleep right now, but it's like a huge part of me is missing and I can't put a finger on what it is. I know I'm just a stranger and all, but even so, maybe it would help to talk it out? 😓 I don't get it. Logically this ... Void .. feeling just doesn't make sense. […] I need help, but I'm unsure why or how I can be helped right now. I just know something isn't right, and that even by writing this I'm somehow proverbially shooting myself in the foot.
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@DaveJA I feel that. Humans prefer to fix things, solve problems and find answers to difficult questions, so when there isn't one, when everything you can think of is good but the check engine light of existence is still blinking like crazy it can be incredibly depressing and distressing.
For me I tend to feel that most when, looking back, I realize I have people who loved me in a general sense, but they didn't actually really KNOW me as a person. 🤔 Like how parents can love their kids but be totally, or even just partially out of touch with them, and it's a lonely place. I spent so much time being who I was "expected" to be, playing the "right" roles in life and doing the "right" things that I realized I wasn't actually being heard or seen when I would try to be vulnerable with my loved ones. Of course I don't know if that applies to your situation at all, I just wish I'd realized it sooner in mine so I thought I'd mention it and see if it helps ya 🤷🏼☺️
@Runawaycuddles It does, thank you. I'm also feeling much better after a good night's sleep
For me it's that I'm fundamentally vulnerable, struggling and lonely. 😅 I try very hard to put a brave face on everything and I have gotten very good at handling shit by myself as far as I can, it's just genuinely not enough and I really do need healthy support in my life. Unfortunately most avenues people usually use to find genuine support are closed to me in many ways because of my disabilities, so I'm very isolated.
I'm sorry it's been so difficult for you @Runawaycuddles and thank you for the responses. I feel were very similar in that way, I've been getting steadily more comfortable with opening up to people but it's still a struggle. 😅 Feel free to reach out if you ever need an ear or a chat 🤗
@DaveJA Thank you, you too!
Now that life has changed so much I'm not sure where I'm going or what I'm doing. I've spent the last three years essentially underground. Every time I get sick now I wonder if it's the Rona and even though I test negative I'm still not sure. I work from home now and that's a total lifestyle shift so I don't socialize nearly as much.
In my personal experience once I experienced betrayal, and the ensuing feelings of grief, anger, and loneliness, I never actually recovered.
The scar is permanent, and the best I can do is go through the motions of trusting others, and myself.
But I will never actually feel trust again, and the loneliness, anger, and grief do not fade so much as I am simply learning to live with them, like learning to live with the chronic ache of other deep scars.
I know this has been brought up before but it's just something that really makes my blood boil.
The disrespect and harassment women face from guys trying to pressure them or trick them into situations and acts. Especially in this PLATONIC community.
I know I'm known as a positive guy here but some of the horror stories I've heard just infuriate me!
deep breath
There's definitely something weighing me down and maybe writing about it will help, if even for a bit. Thank you!
I normally write about things like that in my personal journals or other platforms. Though these days, I guess in part I've been trying to not feel those emotions, because I've felt it again and again before, so it didn't really occur to me to write about it. I'm not sure if I've taken the right path on the matter, though instead of just taking time to heal from the new heartbreak I decided I was gonna be done mourning over it again and again. I thought I'm gonna keep on moving with life, maybe even try dating a bit and just not put my life on hold for someone who is either never coming back or a situation that's likely never really gonna change. Though I've now been thinking that maybe I need to take time to feel and it isn't a waste to do so. I'm thinking no matter how many times, my heart needs to feel and process for that's the only way I may really move on and let whatever the future holds come my way. I'm realizing the heart doesn't really care about how many times I've worked through something before, if I need to do it again, I need to do it again.
So a letter to that someone:
I really liked you, maybe even loved you. I didn't care about your this or that. You could've became a potatoe, although I'd never want you to, and I still would've happily been by your side. Though I couldn't hold on when we had no resolution for what was hurting me and taking us apart. I still think of you, what we had, and what we could've had. As much as I'm heartbroken over our loss, more than anything I hope and want you to be safe, and happy. Wherever life takes us and if we can never really be together, I at least hope you will lead a good life.
@Lovelight 🤗🤗🤗🤗
@Jova114 Thank you! 🤗
@Lovelight Anytime! I am always here to give hugs
@Jova114 Aren't you just the sweetest! 🤗 😊
@Lovelight Aww shucks! I try to be. You welcome to message me whenever you need to 🤗😁
@Jova114 Hugs. Ty.
@stormydaycuddle 🤗🤗 No need to thank me. I will always stand on the side of being respectful.
@Jova114 You too! 😊
Need to cuddle and talk about life, life is such an experience.
Never heard this version of this song. Sinead O’Connor’s I’ve listened to so much, is my favorite. Thanks for sharing @pmvines
@carrieanne. These are two of my other favorite covers by him . Such an under rated talent
I felt that @Lovelight . I used to handwrite notes to my ex all the time and then throw it away. It helped somewhere though somehow. Hope you find solace.