Just an FYI y'all, OP's account currently shows deleted. Unfortunately it doesn't show it on the forum though.
@Lovelight even if it's deleted it's good for others I think
It can be. It's good for others to know too and make a more informed decision about how or if they want to respond.
@Lovelight well said many almost have same issue
@Ahmedali999 Hey bro I wanted to talk to u about something private. Is it possible for you to open your messages again?
While OP account is deleted, I applaud their courage to get out their thoughts and feelings which left behind this wonderful treasure of a thread. The support and resources you have all provided is truly inspiring and I thank you deeply. I'm grateful for this community.