I just feel like I'm never going to meet someone. I've been gaining a lot of weight lately. Not sure what from. Maybe age. Slowing metabolism. Not sure... But I feel terrible about how I look. Especially with my shirt off. I feel like my appearance is just as unattractive as my shy personality. So now I have nothing. Not even physical appeal. Sigh.... My situation isn't great. I just feel like I'm never going to get out of this hole. I feel scared for myself. I wish I could just be helped one last time to get my life together but I'm on my own and morale is low :'c it hurts to see my family going through the same feelings I have. I wish I could make it better for everyone. But I can't even make it better for myself.. Idk where I'm going with this.... I just feel sad and alone....