I know, just as you do, what is like to live so deep in that dark and lonely place, alone, lost, and silent that you not only have forgotten the warm sunlight, but you're not even sure it was real, that you didn't imaging it.
You're worth it. You are deserving and worthy of affection, attention, acknowledgement, and love... Even if you don't believe it, I'll believe it for you.
The entire purpose of life is to experience things, to suffer through them and to learn from them. You aren't alone. Reach out. If you need to vent, to talk about some victory or success but no one to share it with, want to talk about how good awful the lighting is in game of thrones season 8, reach out, I'm here.
I'm good at offering verbal cuddles.
For real though, the lighting on season 8... You can only see eyes and smiles... It's maddening!