So I cuddled with someone months and months ago. Almost a year ago now. She was the first person I cuddled with and I really enjoyed my experience. I even booked with her again. But when I made my second booking on the site she asked that I text her so she could circumvent fees. Months go by. I start to delude myself that this person is actually my friend because I’m very lonely and have issues with my mental health. I really wanted to book a third session. So we agree to have one in early January. I pay her the full amount before she even shows up and once we’re a few days away she says she needs to reschedule because she just had a bad experience with someone. I agree to that. I say February 15th would be best because that’s when I’m house sitting and would be in a better position to host. This is where I start messing up. I told her I would make payments to her over the course of the month and try to get up to $1200 so we could have a longer session. I keep making payments, but it starts getting hard. I get up to $650 sent, but I tell her I’m starting to get into a bad place financially and ask if we can just have a session with a reduced amount of hours that fits into the $650. She says no, because she’s rescheduled a trip so she can make it, and says I need to pay the $1200. I wanted to try but started to feel like I was drowning between that and other bills. I asked her if I could pay her the final $550 when she arrived in cash, because I was advised by a friend that I should do this, and she rejects this and says I’m making her uncomfortable. I say I don’t understand because I’ve paid her upon arrival in the past, but she says she feels like I’m trying to back out of payments. This turns into an argument and she makes it very clear she won’t return my money even though our session date is still a week away. I had tried to get a refund days before but she said no, and I said she could keep it because I felt guilty. After I tried to stand up for myself and not apologize and feel guilty constantly, she just says she has it in writing that I said she could keep it. After I say I’m considering reporting her, she threatens sue me for defamation of character. I’d like to see how this goes because I don’t have any money to take, and I doubt she can afford lawyers.