Hello, Just need to release something in hopes of maybe helping someone else too. As a child an older female "family" member did some inappropriate things, not going go get into anything in detail. I must have been around 7 years old and she was a teenager. The worst part is that for all those years it especially brought shame and disgust because we were "related". Although that ended up not being true because of me finding out about being adopted 8 years ago. The thing is that I'm positive these childhood traumas have caused me to act certain ways in regards to women over the years. Thankful for the ability to practice platonic touch through this site but not without temptation. A work in progress. Urging anyone who is struggling in any area to look throughout life and know there's reasons why. Thanks for letting me share this!