AMiller

Hi there, I'm Andy. Please excuse the lack of profile pic, I'm going through a lot right now and am really struggling to take a photo where I don't think look terrible.

So for starters, I'm on the autistic spectrum. For most of my life I've struggled with touch. You're probably thinking 'then why are you here?' It's a fair question!

When I was 17 I got into a relationship that lasted until I was 32. I thought we would be together forever. We got married had two beautiful but unfortunately disabled children. You can imagine the pressure that puts on a relationship. Throw in that our second was born during the height of covid lock down one and it's little wonder the relationship broke. Since then I've been on my own and well.. I'm struggling.

The last year I've sunk into a deep depression. I've attempted suicide on six occasions and had more breakdowns than I can count. Done a lot of self reflecting too. I'm slowly learning how to be single, what my love languages are, how to date me.

During the summer I had an almost thing with a woman. Her love language is touch and she'd often hug me or hold my hand, put an arm round me. That sort of thing. It was an eye opener honestly. I beansed things up between us but the touch stayed with me. Made me question things. Am I as aversed to touch as I think I am? Have I changed? Have my autistic traits changed? Can they change even?

If you've read all this then honestly you are a Saint. Thank you. Just seeing you check out my profile will give me a bit of a boost. If you want to message me please do. Even just to chat. You take care now.