WrenMaxwell82

I'm described by others as someone who turns good people into terrible people because I am too giving towards them. I usually put the wants and needs of others above my own, to the point that everyone I am close to expects and demands more of me than I am physically capable of giving, and then they get annoyed and angry at me for not giving them more, and then they leave me.... which is why I have no one close in my life except parents (who are, of course, obligated to love me) and nothing to my name... not even a job, because why would anyone hire me when I will work myself to death for them for free?

I have not held someone or been held in 10 years. I just want someone to hold and to be held by someone as though they care about me, and I'd like to fall asleep in someone's arms and wake up in them again. Maybe only once. Maybe only once in a while. Probably only a couple of times in the next few months. I have not slept well in 10 years. I just need to not feel so utterly alone all the time. I like being the little spoon or clinging to your side.

I want no obligations. Just to hold and be held. Not interested in a romantic or sexual relationship AT ALL. I am already in love with someone, have been waiting for him for 9 years, and nothing will change that. I have zero interest in any other men, so if I suspect that interest from someone else, that will be the moment that all contact with that person ends. I would hate myself for hurting anyone with such a cold act as ending a friendship because the other party developed feelings, but I refuse to gamble with another person's feelings (gambling that they would lose interest over time), which is far less respectful or considerate.

In truth, I want to hold you or be held by you while wishing I was holding and being held by someone else. Just being honest.

On a related note, I cannot host, as I'm not living in my own home. And I'm sad to say I cannot be a guest in a house with furry pets. While I do love cats and dogs and bunnies, I am very allergic (and asthmatic), which would make cuddling a medical risk 😞 If you have a dog or cat (especially a cat) you should probably pass by me.

I'm an INFJ-T, btw.