davey1

I am a single widowed father of two.40 yrs. Old .my wife and I had been separated for over two years.we were together for 15 yrs.married for 3.through all the bullcrap we remained close and still loved each other.but simply could not live together or be a couple.,A (peaceful state of co-existance) is how I think of those years..,she died of cervical cancer on Aug.14 2016.I helped in every way possible from July 3 2015., when she was diagnosed., till I helped change her diaper for the last time at 9:30. That morning...I kept my promise to love and cherish till death we did part..for the most part I'm over it all.i take comfort knowing that I did the best I knew how .looking back.,it was a mess I had become a verbally abusive jerk!! She refused to compromise .we were both unhappy.the thing I feel like I missed out on was the want ., or even ...need to cuddle.she was so friggin ticklelish!!!! & a thick or BBW figure is ok but she was always just big enpughf to make it even more difficult for me to be as close to her as I always wanted to be.hope that dosint sound to horrible..I'm not incredibly small 6'-2" 220 lbs.anyways I think my point is., 3yrs and almost 5? Months seems like a loooonnngg......!!!!! Time to have gone with-out human CONTACT.