About me
I asked a few friends how they'd describe me. While their answers were generally flattering, or at least I liked them, most of the answers really didn't fit for this purpose. Either the answer could be read as '3edgy4me' or trying too hard, or possibly provocative - and since pretty much everyone here is for platonic fulfillment of safe and caring touch to fill some need... Well, I had to go with the 'secondary' descriptions they seemed to agree on.
So, I'm the mom-friend. Sometimes that means mama bear, others, nurturing worrywart, or other times I'm dispensing advice whether it was specifically asked for or not, like some kind of Bond-like yenta. I will sneak attack you, or anyone else, be they random stranger or not, if I deem them in need of a good yenta-ing.
I suppose you could call me 00Yenta, but maybe that's a bit much.
The thing is, is that I've spent so much time caring for or nurturing my friends, loved ones, and passing a bit of it to random folks who seem to be in need of it, that I've neglected my own need to be cared about to a degree. To just be comfortable and have contact without any intent or demands or subtext, free of the weight of expectation to 'do' something in some fashion... That's been a long, long time since I had that, to the point that I've even become skittish and shy in some regards. I'm in a new city, a new state, and have none of my old circle of supports of friends, and the like, so my chances for reliable, easygoing connection have evaporated. I don't say any of that to complain, but simply to explain my current situation as a sort of heads-up.